A diary entry looking to understand the stirs that've come up from expanding my awareness. Maybe I’ve gotten so numb to being in autopilot that when I suddenly become self-aware that I am indeed a living being, alive and breathing in the now and experiencing this world in this body, the anxiety that rises from that awareness is not mere anxiety but me sipping into the tip of awakening. It’s me experiencing a nudge of being awake . It’s indeed feeling , which is something app