Check Your Thoughts First (Your Phone Can Wait)

Angelica Carrasco
Jul 9
5 min read

Updated: Aug 18

"Life's so stressful. I'm always broke. I never have enough time. I'm tired. I'm sick. I hate the way my body looks. Why is she so pretty? I'll never make it. I'm a failure. I wish I looked like that... UGH."

Does that sound familiar?

These are the things we say to ourselves, some out loud, most unconsciously. And then we wonder why we feel stuck while everyone else seems to be living the dream. Why nothing changes. Maybe those thoughts have something to do with our reality? Something we rarely deem essential because, after all, what are thoughts but invisible fluffs that come out of nowhere. Right? Well, yes and no. Thoughts are the essence of everything you see in the physical world. They're energy, and energy informs matter. So they're invisible, but the invisible creates the visible.

Here's the truth: there's a version of you that's healthier, freer, sexier, and fully alive and in love with life. And yes, that badass version of you exists. And you have the power to create it.

*Imagination and faith are the secrets of creation - Neville Goddard*

The Deeper Root

I was going to start this blog with tips about fitness and eating clean because that's the theme I was initially going for. However, I realized that self-transformation goes much deeper than protein intake or sticking to a workout routine. I can't ever just speak on a surface level because it's never about the thing—it's almost always about the thing underneath the thing. And yes, macros and movement consistency matter, but they're not the root. If you want lasting change in your LIFE, you have to start with what's happening within you.

The Identity I Didn't Know I Built

A little story: For years, I lived as if I was meant to live in perpetual sickness. There was always something: physical fatigue, mental fog, undiagnosed issues. I was fortunate to grow up in a health-conscious household. My parents were huge advocates for whole foods, no soda or candy or trash, and delicious home-cooked meals. And I was physically healthy for the most part, but almost never feeling 100%.

So fast-forward to 2020, I got in the best shape I'd been in for years. Then suddenly, and what felt like overnight, in early 2023, I was diagnosed with Grave's Disease. My thyroid went rogue. My heart rate was constantly high. I was anxious, tired, moody, losing muscle, skinny-fat, and a total wreck. I had body tremors and could barely write or take clear photos. And all the motivation I gained through my wild wellbeing revolution in 2020 was out the window. Interestingly, a year before this diagnosis, I meditated nearly consistently, so I thought I was invincible. But I hadn't tackled the inner monologue. I was unconsciously running a story behind the scenes built around limitation and dis-ease.

The Wake-Up Call

The breaking point came when I ended up in the ER after coming home from my wedding in Las Vegas. My heart rate hit dangerous levels. After that, I started treatment, but my body still felt imbalanced, and I had a ton of inflammation in my thyroid. The doctor told me that my thyroid inflammation (goiter) was going to stay like that forever, and so she suggested surgery. But because of my passion for singing, I had legitimate concerns about potential damage to my vocal cords. It didn't sound rational to me to cut off a part of such an essential organ. So, instead of making any rash decisions, I thought that maybe my thyroid just needed some rest. And left it alone.

Rewriting the Script

This is when I realized I needed to take a deeper, uncomfortable look into my being. I didn't want to live with disease anymore, and I was SICK of running the same old script that was clearly being produced in my life. This is when I had a mind-f*ck revelation. I had built an identity around disease because that was my excuse to delay my dreams. It gave me reasons to live as a victim and play small. Because I was unconsciously believing I was sick, the universe kept reaffirming those beliefs by bringing me more un-wellness.

So, it was time to wake up and start creating my life, not from the past but from a vision of the future. I discovered Joe Dispenza years back through YouTube, and it was like a candle had been lit in the dark. So, I revisited his concepts and began putting them into practice. Then I found Neville Goddard, whose philosophy is the same: "The first step to change is becoming conscious of the unconscious. You're the creator of your reality. Everything you see on the outside is just a mirror of the inside." So, what are you

creating? :)

The Practice That Changed Everything

This isn't a happy ending, but it's more of a continuous happy. I've been meditating almost consistently for at least 20 minutes. When I don't have time, I do a quick mental review of who I want to be throughout the day, and I wear that person. Now, I feel stronger than I've ever felt. All my blood levels are now back to normal, and I've stopped taking medication for my thyroid. The inflammation has also reduced significantly (which I still can't believe it). I've been working out consistently, lifting weights even when tired, and eating clean, healthy foods. It's worth mentioning that even when my blood levels weren't "perfect," I felt stupendous, and that's all the evidence I needed to know that the work I was doing inside was having an effect on the outside.

Make time to meditate, even if it's at least 10 minutes. Why? It doesn't cost you anything; it works better than drugs and empowers you to believe in yourself. It doesn't get better than that.

Finally, here are some questions for you to reflect upon in silence (before going to sleep or immediately after waking up) or throughout your day. Don't judge, just observe.

Who am I being today?
Who would I rather be?
How does that version of me think, feel, walk, and speak like?

And then begin to act as if. Don't wait, just do. This is not fantasy, wishful thinking, or pretending. It's about commitment to Self; it's about alignment and remembering who we truly are. The creators of our reality. So, check your thoughts first. ;)

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